What If I..?

I stood up really confused
Not knowing where to go
Which way to choose
Is the right turn the one to go through
Would the left turn get really smooth
Or what if I'd make the wrong move..?




('What If I' by Marquise de Ville, March 2010)

My Valentine's Day

If I get to spend a day
With someone on Valentine's Day
I would do anything for the day to stay
With Bradley Cooper as my date

If I get to spend the day
With Bradley Cooper as my Valentine's date
I will start the day with something interesting
That will definitely mean something



If I get to spend the day
I hope it will be a sunny day
I will ask Bradley Cooper if he would like to try
To get on a hot air balloon that will fly us to the sky

If we get up there and spend time in the sky
I will sing him a song that I write while we fly
I will tell him how I love watching him in 'My Little Eye'
And how I want someone like him to be my guy

If I get to spend the day
With Bradley Cooper after the balloon ride
I will take him for a homemade picnic in the park
And share his acting experience from the start

If I get to continue the day
I will tell him how gorgeous and amazing he is
And I don't care if Renee Zellweger is his lady
Because all I care about is Bradley

If I get to have Bradley Cooper on Valentine's Day
I will ask him to be my partner and dance the night away
And under the moonlight I will say
How wonderful it is to have him on My Valentine's Day!

('My Valentine's Day' by Marquise de Ville posted for Nuffang Valentine contest)

A Day In The Sun

Hello, people! I was dreaming about Prince Andrea Casiraghi of Monaco this morning and he gave me a beautiful bouquet of roses in the dream - well, roses are not my type but anyway, as I was smiling to my ears trying to say something to him, my eyes finally popped open and coincidentally stared at this one big faded-dried pink rose bouquet on the drawer next to my bed and I thought, 'Hey, I have to tell them the story!'

So here goes one of the most unforgettable memories that will always be remembered for my entire life. Remember when I posted about my graduation rehearsal when I suddenly puked in the car and dad was nagging like a grandma? Okay, so this was what happened the next day. Yes, the actual graduation ceremony.

My dad woke my brother and I early in the morning to have breakfast and get ready for the ceremony. He was telling me to bring two or three pairs of shoes because I did not wear the appropriate ones for quite a while. So i brought two pairs of black platform wedges. On our way to college, I was giving daddy a hint on which bouquet would I be getting but he looked so clueless and he called my mum to ask about why was I asking him about flowers.

Once we got there, it was crowded with beautiful flower stalls and teddy bears and frames and it was like a colourful flea market. We got out from the car and dad was asking me to go to the registration booth and when I walked a few feet away from the car, guess what? My left shoe broke. The front peep-toe was torn opened and I did not know how the hell it happened. I went back to the car and daddy was like, 'Told you!' I was so clueless on how or why it happened on my graduation day but luckily my dad asked me to bring another pair and I changed to wear them and I was hoping that it would not bring me any trouble at least until the ceremony ends. Dad called mum once again and he nagged about the shoes and he told my mum not to buy from the brand anymore and he said he wanted to sue the company and I knew mum was laughing.

After I registered my name and got my graduation slip, I went to wait in the hall with my dad and my brother and everyone in the hall was posing with their families and boyfriends or girlfriends and their teddy bears and flowers. I told my dad they had pretty bouquets but you know what he said? 'Okay, we'll take photos here with the flowers' which meant he asked me to stand in front of a giant pot of plants in the hall! It was the decoration in the hall and he didn't have any idea about the graduation bouquet! My brother who was the photographer was laughing out loud and he was teasing me about how cool my photo would be with the biggest 'bouquet' a graduate would ever have for their graduation. Well, very funny!

So dad and my brother went to the hall after that while I joined all the graduates outside the hall for the graduate procession. When we got into the hall in which the ceremony had started, my dad who was sitting in the middle of the hall was waving his way at me and he was giving me signs to wear my mortarboard or the cap properly and I was in the middle of the procession! I was smiling when other parents looked at him.

In the middle of the ceremony before my turn to get the scroll, my dad texted me who was sitting a few rows in front of him and told me he and my brother were hungry and I told him to get their lunch first. But he wanted to wait for my turn to get on the stage. He was thrilled when my name was called and when I walked to my seat I could see dad's happy face and I know I had make him proud.

When I got out from the hall, my brother was waiting outside alone and we were sweating as it was so hot and sunny and we couldn't wait to go back but dad was not around. When he came a few minutes later, he was holding a big bouquet of pink roses (only fresh roses without anything, no bears, no chocolates) and I was stunned. It was really huge! My dad had never ever in his entire life bought flowers for anyone, not even his mum or my mum! I was the first person to get flowers from him and his choice? Impressive! Daddy asked me to hold the bouquet while he held the scroll for photos. We shot a few photos and he asked me to take the original scroll straightaway so that we could go home.

So when I went to take the scoll, the officer said I had to return my robe before they could give me the document and dad said I could not return it because I had to take a proper graduation photo with all of the family members so he asked how much ddo we have to pay for the robe if we want to buy it and everybody in the room was like, 'You're buying the robe? For real?' I was blushing but hey, it's red and it's pretty! But as I was blushing in the academic room, all the staff were praising how cool my dad was and I was so proud that it made me blushed even more hahaha.

So we bought the robe and got the scroll and we headed to have our lunch before going home. My sisters were so freaking shocked to see the bouquet that daddy gave me for my gaduation because I was the first one to have it and when we called mum to tell about the whole story, mummy was laughing and she said she didn't expect him to be so cool haha. I got the graduation present too; the shopping trip to London and I had fun!

See how big it is in my arm?

I have the best graduation experience and I have the coolest family members on earth! I just couldn't ask for more. Well, I have to go now. Happy reading and have a nice day!

Maybe It's True

I'm always connected online
Hooked on Facebook all the time
Hoping you've checked my profile
Just cant help wondering why
You play it cool but see
I'm hopelessly falling for you

('Maybe' - Jay Sean)

Live Like Dying

2010 is finally here and I have not posted anything since last few months and I am relieved that I have finally found the urge to write again because last couple months have been really rocky and 2009 had tested my patience and courage in searching what I exactly want to achieve in life.

Well, I was in London during Christmas Sale and yes, I got to fight with thousands of shoppers for the best bargains during Boxing Day and I went to see Sherlock Holmes the movie. But no, on the New Year's Eve I did not go out to celebrate as I did not have the feeling of celebrating the timeout - the end of my unaccomplished resolutions for the year. I wanted to discover as many places in the world or at least go to a few islands and fly in a helicopter or a private plane for sightseeing or try out paragliding or ride in a hot air balloon, but time flies really fast and I ended up doing nothing.

I do not have any idea of what I will do this year but I certainly do promise I will take every second in life to appreciate what my family have done to me and I will spend more time with them and I will hangout with my closest friends that have always been there for me as much as I can and most of all I will not disappoint my late grandparents' wish to see me succeed in everything I do in life. I will not waste a moment to cherish what I have today and I want to discover and learn about life as much as I could as that is the major way to improve myself to become a better person, a good daughter, a sister and a friend (I have always wanted to be the best wife too!). Sounds so much like in the beauty pageant, no?

Whatever it is, I wish 2010 will see myself as an educated and a respectful woman as turning older is not something I will be afraid of. I am totally seeing myself as the same old chick but with a little upgrade and if that would make me a b***h, I am definitely taking the bet!

"Give a girl an education and introduce her properly into the world, and ten to one but she has the means of settling well, without further expense to anybody. "


-Jane Austen-

Brother Turns Twenty

Hi brother, today you're twenty
Don't be sad if you're lonely
Cos even when nobody's around
We always want you to be happy

Hi brother, today you're twenty
Friends come and people stray
But don't let things come in your way
Cos we will always be there to stay

Hi brother, today you're twenty
Don't feel down if things don't work out
Cos even if we're miles apart
We'll be there to sort things out

Hi brother, today you're twenty
Life is cruel and it's not that easy
Learn to appreciate little things
You'll be surprised how wonderful they can be

Hi brother, today you're twenty
If the sun doesn't light your day
Or if it rains heavily on your way
Be grateful that you can see another day

Hi brother, today you're twenty
Smile even when your soul is crying
Even if luck doesn't show up when you're ready
Call my name and I'll there when you need me

Happy Birthday, brother! God bless you!

Love, Kisses and Hugs

Show Me Love

It's the month of my birthday and my brother's, my boyfriend's and his brother's, my aunt's and her husband's, my cousins', and obviously for those who were born in the glorious November. But I am not writing about my or their becoming birthday, but to share a memory with you people, I graduated a few days ago. I mean the graduation ceremony was held on 31st October and I was so busy to write about anything since the ceremony made it compulsory for me to travel a few days to settle things up and I had to pack all the things in my room and the house because we were moving out (to the next block, fortunately).

Well, there was nothing extraordinary about my graduation as everyone who completed studies will have the chance to experience it with the presence of their beloved people. As for me, I had four invitation cards but I only took two as only two of my family members were coming, my dad and my little brother. My mom had to go outstation for work and my sisters were busy with their meetings with clients. My boyfriend could not make it because he was busy studying for his coming final exams. I did not feel unhappy as I was grateful enough to have my dad to drive me to the rehearsal and the actual ceremony even when he had to take a few days leave from his important work. If I had to drive myself alone to the graduation, then that is pathetic. I would be screaming and crying all the way to college if nobody could come.

The rehearsal was on Friday and we had to be there by 9 am, so my dad woke me up really early and we only had some hot drinks. Daddy had his hot tea and he asked me to eat something but I only had my coffee because I was so sleepy and I thought we would have breakfast after the rehearsal or when we had a break later. So the rehearsal was only a short briefing to explain about the actual ceremony and what to do and how. Daddy waited for me outside and the briefing ended before 11am. This was the first time he had ever come to send me to college. I drove by myself alone when I first registered as a student in the college. My parents were so busy with work and all of my siblings are used to doing things by ourselves. When I got out from the hall, I was sweating because it was really hot outside and I drank a bottle of 100 plus to cool down. Daddy was telling me to stop drinking the isotonic drink because it might make my gastric worse as I had not eaten anything from morning, but I said it would be okay.

So we decided to have brunch somewhere in Damansara to kill the time as we were going to fetch my brother in the station later. So daddy was telling me about a father who was also waiting for his daughter during the rehearsal and I was laughing to his story. I laughed but my mind was so not in its place and I was feeling dizzy. I thought, 'maybe it was just the heat'. But when daddy stopped the car at the traffic light in front of One Utama, my hand was pulling a plastic bag under the car seat and I opened it up to cover my mouth with it.

I wasn't really sure what I was doing and my dad was looking at me curiously and he asked me why. As I was just opening my mouth to say something to him, I suddenly threw out bubbles and coffee in the plastic bag. My dad was so shocked and he asked me to show him an air-conditioned place to eat, so I just pointed my hand to The Curve with my mouth still throwing out only bubble from the isotonic drink. Daddy drove really fast and he was babbling about how many times he asked me not to skip breakfast and not to drink coffee or carbonated drinks without eating.

When we got out from the car, I threw the plastic bag away and I told him I was okay but daddy was still worried. He was holding me because he was afraid I might be fainted. I had to eat the whole plate of rice even when I couldn't finish it. My dad was really treating me like I was still a little girl when he insisted me to eat all the rice and chicken and finish up the drinks so that I would not get worse. After eating and drinking green tea, I felt relieved and I didn't feel like throwing up again. So daddy suggested to go window shopping in IKEA. I was glad that he was happy looking at all the pretty furnitures after making him worried for my unintentional carelessness. It had been a while since I saw him smiling for things that he did for himself. He was always doing things for others and it felt really great to see him enjoying the very limited time for himself.

When we got home after fetching my brother, my dad was telling everyone in the house about me throwing up in the car because I didn't want to have breakfast. Everyone was laughing but I knew that he was really worried about me and he really wanted me to be in a bed of roses, especially on my graduation day. My brother and sisters were laughing when he was babbling because that showed how much he cares for his children. He might get a little sarcastic sometimes, but he's the best man in the whole universe.

Well, that was on the rehearsal day. I really want to tell you guys what happened during my graduation but it is now almost 3 am in the morning and I had to wake up early tomorrow because I have work to do so I'll continue once I settled things up.

"A father doesn't tell you that he loves you.

He shows you."