Play The Game Or Walk Away

As always, I'm still awake after a few trials of counting the sheep failed. I don't really have much to do at this time as I don't want to wake my workaholic sister and my exhausted dad from their dreams. Plus, I don't want to wake the lazy-fat-bump persian cat which is sleeping upside down on the stairs in his cage. He slept like a dead cat suffocated from over-eating. I really don't have anything to write but I wanted to post a meaningful lyrics of a song that I've been listening to over and over again. It's not a new song but it suddenly lingers in my head every time I try to shut my eyes down before any dream appears..

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cos I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should have never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

('Cry' sung by Rihanna)

Dust It Off

Rain falls every day in the evening
But it doesn't stop the sun from burning
The clouds are no more that appealing
In the world that is no longer green

People seem to be rushing
Trying to survive from starving
In some parts of the world humans are fighting
For what they have not seem to be getting

In every corner there is no place to be hiding
From the little faults that we are doing
Children play around with no clean air to breathe in
Are these the ways to make the world a better place to live in?



('Dust It Off' by Marquise de Ville, April 2009)

Inhaling Your Sin

I'm back online to let everyone know I'm such a hardcore party-animal that I'm still awake even after eating the whole plate of rice hahaha..no, I'm kidding! I can't sleep. I've been having trouble sleeping even when my whole body hurts and desperately need some rest because of my heavy cough which starts working whenever I try to lay my head and it is killing me! It didn't bother when I was out shopping with my siblings today and that is really weird. I hate it when I'm sick but I hate it more to be coughing non-stop like I play the role as Benjamin Button..like I've been a heavy smoker since I was a baby when the truth is that I am a passive smoker who gets the unnecessary exposure of tobacco smoke and risk of having lung cancer from people around including those who claimed they love me.. like hello, when will you people learn..the day I die from smokers' fault? Duh!

I thought of ending this post here but I still can't get rid of this cough and I think I better continue typing as it will at least keep my mind away for a while. But I still hate smokers! I live for 23 years and I still can't figure out why people are willing to waste their effort and money just for the sake of killing themselves slowly. Okay it's all about stress and problems at work or family and stuff..but will that be gone after a box? Hell no! And people are promoting going green and keeping the environment safe and practice recycle and things like that but excuse me, do they even think about the content? Why don't they smokers go and consume pure nicotine and all the carcinogens as their daily meal without eating real food? At least they can cut the food consumption and save that to others who live in poverty and those who really need food.

I'm talking about real life situation here. Okay, let's make a point here..smokers spend at least RM6-RM9 for a box of ciggies (excluding their petrol to get to the shop and time they waste and the effort) and sometimes these life-fighters seem to be very concern about the money or miles they have to spend to get great meals or real food to live. That's one. Another scenario about these hard-working people is that they think they work so hard that they deserve to spend so much on great food and also..ciggarettes..which means they eat healthy food to live happily and have a good lifestyle but at the same time they spend another amount of money for the ciggies.. I suggest them to just buy one sharp knife which will only cost them half the price to kill themselves! At least they won't be a burden for their loved ones when they fall sick or getting cancer because of their own fault. Do they even think about the hospital bills later? And it's even worse if their family or friends have to pay for their indiscretion.

I bet they go for the ciggies than choosing the bread

Talking about these big-headed-self-centered people really boils my blood up to my head and I don't want to be having another sickness or migraine. I'm sick of watching people ingnoring babies or children around them by holding on to their smoking expensive sticks on the streets without knowing the risk that they're giving. I'm sick and tired of the long-term exposure of smoke and breathing myself to die. Whatever it is, we non-smokers really don't need anything from you 'cancer-finder' or 'cancer-giver'..and that means we really don't NEED your 'contribution'. People don't deserve to be treated like that because for your attention smokers.. you don't have the right to cut others' lives short.