Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon

Another Saturday night appears and I am at home still suffering from my monthly freaking pain that comes during my menses time and after years it still kills me like I was going to die any moment it strikes. I hate being sick...alone. But yeah, what do I expect others to do? To feel the pain? I wish! I guess I was born to be a lone ranger and I am glad that I don't need anybody to do things for me. I love the way I am..daddy taught me enough about doing things by myself and I can do what a man can do to live on my own. Oh, yes..I'm not telling a story about my painful endometriosis sickness here, I am posting another piece of my writing which I wrote two days ago..it was great to just sit at home when ideas come hehe.. so here it is..

He was really funny
She was totally crazy
He liked having tea
She was obsessed with coffee
He was playful
She played mature
He claimed to be loyal
She wasn't sure if
He wasn't a player
Because she was a swinger
He loved the rainbow
She preferred the thunder
He dressed in bright colours
She was comfortable in pastels
He loved the smell of flowers
She was into cactus
He liked to pamper cats
She was never good to animals
He was always calm
She often got tensed
He was full of patience
She usually went mad
He confessed he liked her
She refused and told it was crap
He tried to convince her
She did everything for him to give up
But no matter how awkward it was
How different they were
They both couldn't get any better
If one of them weren't there for each other

He left a scar across your heart
I understand girl
Don't let his wrongs
Tear us apart
Girl I'm your man
Just because he did
you swear I'm cheating
You think I just don't care
What must I do die
For another misery
And it's killing me girl knowing
You compare me to him
Always guilty before the sin
I can't win,
No I can't win
I'll do anything to prove I love you
Baby girl but I refuse to
pay for something I didn't do
I love you
But I refuse to stay...
Paying for his mistakes

Can't Keep Forgiving

It felt a little bit uneasy to update the blog on the same day with the same date in a few minutes, but who cares..it's my personal page anyway! Just now I thought that I couldn't finish my poem but my fingers couldn't stop from working on the keyboard. So here how it goes..

I held you close
I kept you warm
I lifted you up
When you were down

I made you safe
I lightened up the day
To stop the bleeding
And fear from your way

But then you betrayed
You took it for granted
It wasn't thanks that I hoped for
Neither apologies that I wanted

I have never been so untrue
And I want you to know the truth
That I just can't keep forgiving you
For all that you've put me through

('Can't Keep Forgiving' by Marquise de Ville, 2009)

Just Another Fine Evening

Hello, everyone! It's 3am in the morning and it's the second week of March. I just realised that I haven't updated my blog for quite a while since my previous one. I just didn't have the right mood and I didn't have anything interesting to be shared. I was busy spending the time with my family, but I managed to sneak out for a salsa night with my brother and a few friends hehe.. it was a blast and It was a bit awkward as I hadn't been doing the dance for quite some time and I felt like a freak watching others' moves better. And plus, the muchachaz from Colombia were so drooling-ly hot and it makes me confused about my orientation for a few moments! I think I have to start working out to get the 'salsa abs' like the old times hahaha..

Oh, yes.. I just came back from watching Marley & Me starring Jennifer Aniston and Owen Wilson in Pavilion and it was a good movie. It was flat in the beginning but it was a motivational one and it nearly got me thinking about starting a family LOL (I don't even have a job!). I'm really impressed of how a dog can really change people's lives and how it teaches you to be patient and strong to handle things before you can get serious with your life. I guess I have to learn to take care of a pet so that I will learn to decide about my life goals later (I know I won't even remember about this when I wake up tomorrow). One of the best things about the movie is that Owen acted so well in the movie that it makes him a really different role from his previous hilarious characters that he played in other movies. And the dog! Yes, the name is Marley and he was such an amazing but pain-in-the-ass dog which makes everything in the movie went so well from gloomy to histerically funny.

Well, that makes a fine evening for me and I guess this is all for now. I'll update the blog later because I am trying to finish writing another poem since I haven't added a new one. I have to continue the poem before the inspiration goes away and before my eyes shut themselves down and wake up in another blurry boring day tomorrow. Til' then, enjoy reading!