Clean and Clear

Don't go
Don't leave
Don't ever turn your back on me
Don't say that you don't want me
Don't smile
Don't cry
Don't say a word to me
Don't throw the look at me
Don't forgive
Don't apologise
Because it it time
That I am leaving you behind

Fight For Love

The quarrels of lovers are like summer storms;
everything is more beautiful when they have passed.

- Madame Necker


I love argument, I love debate.
I don't expect anyone just to sit there and agree with me,
that's not their job.

- Margaret Thatcher


Hear one side and you will be in the dark.
Hear both and all will be clear.

- Thomas C. Haliburton

Bringing On The Heartbreak

Parfois, je perd confiance en toi,
et pourtant je voudrai tant te croire
comprend moi, malgre mon amour pur toi
les entendre me fait douter pardonne moi
je cherche pas a te faire fuire,
voit au moins celle que tu veux suivre
mais bebe non ne m'en veux pas
si je cherche a me proteger
par le passe j'ai trop pleure
pourtant je fuis pour oublier
aujourd'hui c'est a tes cotes que je veux avancer



-s'éloignant par Lynshaa

L

Does true love exist?
Or only lust that triggers the relationship?

So Sick

I fall sick a lot lately. The new year has come to the end of the second month and I still can't put the pieces together. I try so hard to catch everything I could that I tend to forget to take good care of the small parts of my life that have been more than good to me. Apologies then;

Brain
Sorry for the unbearable overload
Tummy
Sorry for the uneasy butterflies
Pillow
Sorry for the sleepless tears
Heart
I'm sorry for the severe damage

I won't let them hurt anymore.

Love The Way You Live

Hello, all! Oh, my.. is dust covering this place? Can you see spider webs all over it already? It's been quite a while since my last post here. I've been really occupied with work that has become one of the biggest part of my life and it was a very busy time for all of us in the company as it was the end of the term for the kids before they go off for Christmas and New Year holidays. And it has been hectic for me too as yesterday was my last day working in PJ centre on weekends. I'll be based in the HQ starting this week and no more traveling back and forth with a few cups of coffee every Saturday and Sunday just to keep myself awake to drive all the way for the sake of the children.

I'm relieved, but undeniably sad at the same time. The kids and parents are already attached to me as we spent six remarkable cheerful months together. I gained a lot of experience and I am really flattered that my patience in teaching the kids and guiding the parents are worth at the end of the day. I received a lot of praises and thank you wishes and presents from them. I know it is nothing compared with employees from big companies that get Full HD TVs or trips from the bosses and clients; but to get to know that what you have given to an innocent precious little minds that will develop in shaping their thoughts to grow later is - priceless.

Speaking of my fully occupied time that had restricted myself from writing, I was also busy doing makeover to the house because I was so enthusiastic in ensuring my comfort as I wanted to come home feeling cozy and peaceful after a tiring day at work. I have always been known as a home-ly type of person who sometimes refuse to go out and socialise whenever I have my time off. It doesn't mean that I didn't have a cozy home before but to have the chance to do something on my own with my effort and money (as I didn't ask daddy even a cent this time) makes it a whole new makeover to myself too.

I feel much more content coming home switching on the new floorlamp which I only change the lampshade, sticking myself on the newly-bought white L-shaped couch, looking at the gorgeus colourful painting on the wall that I actually painted myself, watching the old TV ( I'm still saving to buy a new one) that is put on the new shelf with my pretty little ornaments on the sides with a little white lamp I bought in a home deco mart for a very cheap price. Oh, my.. I'm hundred percent satisfied. I don't need a lavish social lifestyle nor an expensive handbag (at least at this moment ) to find my satisfaction. I'm happy doing what I like.

Anyway, it's my off day today and I want to continue reading a book that I get from one of the students' parents for my Christmas present. I've already mixed a cup of coffee before I started writing this and yes - I'll spend the day reading on the couch. Til' then, spend your time doing the things you have ever wanted to do the most. Have a nice day!

I finished this painting in two nights

My favourite porcelain Japanese dolls, kawaii, no?

Porcelain Union Jack boots I bought in London

Moon Lights The Dream

Don't quit shining up the darkness on the narrow way
I wish for your spark to take the sadness away
You're the only one among the diamonds in the sky
Your shimmering light appears to me like a smile
For it is the reason that I don't want to cry
O' dear moon, please stay the way you are
You help keeping me asleep through the night
Living in the dream that I don't want it to end
I no longer want to be awake and pretend
That the dream is over even before it begins





('Moonlight Dream' by Marquise de Ville, Sept 2010)