Viva La Vida; Trip To Spain

Ola! Now that I am back on blogger, I will start the chapter of my long-lost travelling tale back in 2012 visiting Spain while I was on spring break during studies in London. Friends flew from Malaysia to visit me in London and we went for a short visit in Manchester so they could see Old Trafford with their own eyes, and left to board a budget flight to Madrid. It was a very short visit to Madrid but we had our memorable Spanish experience during the four-days-three-nights trip.

Why Madrid? Because we came across a promotion ad online and the flight ticket was only £35 per person and we had never been to Spain before. We basically chose the best budget hotel that we could on websites, as we were not into backpacking but still wanted to stay on our tight budget. We love snapping OOTDs, so backpacking was not an option. We found the hotel on RyanAir website too and the deal was quite interesting. So we took the bus to Manchester from London so we could board a cheap flight to Madrid two days after. It was uncomfortable of course, but it was not that bad. After all, the journey only took us less than three hours. It was okay.

So we took the train from Madrid Airport to the city, where our hotel was located. The journey took us in about half an hour from the airport underground and we got to the nearest station, Puerta Del Sol, where our hotel was located just a few steps away! It was quite a relief knowing that our cheap accommodation was so conveniently located at one of the famous attractions. As it was already midnight, we decided to just unpack and go to bed so we could spend the next day exploring the attractions.

We woke up the next morning feeling so hungry and we walked from the hotel looking around without any preferences, and we saw a very cosy cafe just opposite the hotel building with the main sign that we could understand; 2 euros! Lol! We straight away went across the street and looked the big menu displayed outside the cafe with photos of breakfast meals including a hot drink for 2 euros! It was a cosy little cafe with furry white fluffy cushions on the chairs and the price was 2 euros?! We went in and started ordering the main thing we had in mind, churros! We were hungry but since the price was not that bad we figured we could order more later.

The first place we went after breakfast was Plaza Mayor as it was the closest landmark we could see on the map, walking-distance from the cafe. It was early in the morning so it was not crowded, people were cleaning and started arranging chairs at outdoor cafes at the plaza. We were stunned by the architecture of that rectangle-shaped building. We came from an entrance and realised there were nine entrances to the plaza. It was a place for various cultural events at present, so we could not imagine the time when it was once a place for public execution back in history. So we snapped a few photos of the plaza and of course, our outfit of the day before walking out from Plaza Mayor.

*post to be continued

Our evening flight with RyanAin

The famous Plaza Mayor

Morning view of Plaza Mayor
from the entrance

Our room in Madrid

Fresh fruits at Mercado de San Miguel

Cheapest breakfast menu at Taberna;
recommended for backpackers
and budget travellers ;)

Reminds me of Central Park in NY
(well I have only seen the park on TV)

Mercado de San Miguel; The market

Seafood paella; The closest Spanish cuisine
 that we get to fried rice

Love A Joke

They say we shall not take things for granted
Be kind to unfortunate ones and those in need
Never to speak too loud nor to do wrong to others
For we might one day become that one to fall ill

One shall not hate but love; another joke of the century ?

Figure It Out

“I’m about to make a wild, extreme, and severe relationship rule: THE WORD "BUSY" IS A LOAD OF CRAP AND IS MOST OFTEN USED BY ASSHOLES. The word “busy” is the relationship Weapon of Mass Destruction. Remember: Men are never too busy 

to get what they want.”

“And above all, if the guy you’re dating doesn’t seem to be completely into you, or you feel the need to start “figuring him out,” 

please consider the glorious thought that he might just 

not be that into you."

('He's Just Not That Into You', 2009)

So true.

Give It All..Up.

Sometimes,

when you give up on someone,

it's not because you don't care anymore,

it's because you realise that they don't.

The Greatest Secret

Often they asked about it
The longer, the conscious they get
Always they frowned like they don't understand
Saying it's absurd, too bizzarre, not a trend
Sometimes I do too, feel like it's unfair
And blame so much that I don't have a pair

Never in life that I meant to forget
That He creates every thing for mankind to pray
What is yet to be happening lies in between
For His possessions to reflect their flaws
To thank Him for every granted breath
And to be loved by Him is the first thing to be dreamed

Make Me Sing

If I had one wish 
I'd wish you next to me 
And it could be in summer, fall, or spring
Cause you make my heart sing 
I wanna give my heart, my soul, my love to you 
Cause everyday I'm not with you I'm missing you like crazy 

If you must know the truth
I'm nothing without you 
It's funny how I know what people mean
When it's too good to be true 
Because you give me joy, good love, good times, such happiness
And everyday I thank the Lord for you, I feel so blessed 

I need you to love me, hold me, touch me 
Down deep in my soul, and never let it go 
Of the love we share, no one compares to you 
I'll never let you go cause I really love you so, oh I 
I'll never let you go, No.

(Never Let You Go, Faith Evans)

Through My Veins

I'm sick on my stomach
I got one of the worst
And suddenly

It feels like summer rain
Running through my veins
I cannot ease the pain
I gotta fever chill down the spine

My temperature is rising
What has come over me
I could come down with something deadly




('Summer Rain' by K'Jon)

Shoot Me Down

I built a fort
I was an expert
I was like a stone itself
I did know how cold I could get

Just that I was born warm-blooded
Born to breathe air
Born to have heart beat
Born to have it bleed

Like the world ruined through
centuries
Like the babies grow til their last breaths
Like the skies turn from bright to dark
There were holes in between my defences

Tried to give it a chance
Put down some layers to give it space
Turned concrete to a shiny glass to be seen
Replaced a frowning statue with a smiling plush toy

'Shoot Me Down' by Marquise de Ville, 2013

And not for long it was shattered with the first fire
Should have tried to make it bulletproof
Not to get it all so visibly pretty to destroy
Thus I swear, I'll replace joy with deploy.

Set It Free

You're everything I thought you never were

Nothing like I thought you could have been

But still you live inside of me

So tell me how is that?

You're the only one I wish I could forget

The only one I love to not forgive

And though you break my heart

You're the only one

You said you've got the most respect for me

But sometimes I feel you're not deserving me

You know there are times that I hate you cause I can't erase

And times that you hurt me put tears on my face

And even now while I hate you it pains me to say

I know I'll be there at the end of the day

Yes, there are times when I hate you but I don't complain

Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away

But now I don't hate you I'm happy to say

That I will be there til the end of the day 

I don't want to be without you

But I don't want a broken heart

Don't want to take a breath without you

I don't want to play that part

I know that I love you but let me just say

I don't want to love you in that kind of way

(Beyonce - "Broken-Hearted Girl)

Though I've been a broken-hearted girl

 The pieces kept coming together

Even when I set my heart free, 

Spread my wings and fly away

I can't seem to get you out of my every inch..

Broken Sweetheart

She was once a little princess
A cheerful sweetheart
She was the one that everyone cared about
She lived in a castle
Where every inch was guarded
Just as much as her body needed to be protected
Her thought of having everything permanently
Died when she turned a young lady
While other princesses partied for their sweet sixteen
Her celebration was a quiet one
with grievance and tears in between
She lost the king and queen
who were guarding her since the beginning
She moved on with life after few misleadings
Tried not to think too much nor to foresee what was coming
Her castle became fragile with fences became nothing
She turned her belief into something
That materials could never work in protecting
She became a stranger in her own world she was living in
She wandered around for years in pretending
That her heart would never be the same again
Or would there ever be another King
Not to provide her unbreakable wall for her safety
The one who would truly care about one thing
Building fences around her only heart
It then got thicker and dissapeared from worlds apart
Another year had passed after more than a decade
Not a single second she would risk for another break
"There's a prince charming for everyone out there"
The King and Queen used to tell her then
Princess smiles everyday come shine or rain
"Oh, what is heart for all that I care.."




I turned another year older, 
granpa, granma. 
I'm doing well now, 
even without another half.
Lord bless you both with lights, 
put you under the starts in the heaven skies.

Swaying Tears

I sang

Gladly I sang

Happily I rhymed

To the tune I chanted

I danced

Gracefully I danced

Joyfully I swayed

To the beat at ease

I smiled

Perfectly wide

Grateful for fortunate ones

To be having love by their side

I sang to the song

I danced to the beat

I smiled to happy faces

I screamed my laughter at best

Thou secretly I cried

For how many prayers

For how many wishes

In hoping for a change

To my unforeseen life

To my written story line..

('Swaying Tears' by Marquise de Ville, Jan 2012)

Flying Like A Paper, High Like A Plane, Landed to A Heart

It's April!!! And I'm still chilling at home doing nothing than enjoying the time..still unemployed and jobless and I'm still the same old lazy-sleepyhead-bump who has been wasting her four months of the year chilling! But I did finish reading a few books and I'm still learning languages and I still workout and go jogging whenever I feel like going hehehe... I've considered daddy's suggestion to continue my master's degree by mid-year or by the end of the year. Just for now, I'll cherish the time reading and writing and sleeping like crazy..as always..duh!
Oh,yes! I'm currently obsessed with Columbian 'bachata' dance and I'm learning the moves and practicing it like a freak! I can't even listen to any bachata beat now because my feet will be trembling and eagerly wanting to move and spin. I have always admired Latin culture and the types of dance they have and I love the art of the sensual dance. It's impressive to see how a guy leads his partner and how they put the trust in each other so that it will make a smooth and sexy dance, and most importantly not to fall from a wrong turn. I'm thinking about taking a dance class but since I already know how to salsa, my friends told me that I just need to practice transforming the steps to a slower motion as bachata is just the slower moves of salsa with more sensual touch between the two parties.
Before I become more and more crazy talking about the dance, I'll let you all know about my main story that I wanted to share earlier..I got this one surprise from someone and I don't know what to answer to his question.
Yes, it's a hardcover paper plane..with a note asking me if I would be his girlfriend. It's pretty cute and it's my first time getting a paper plane with the stand and a purple note since my students used to threw paper planes all over the class during my teaching practicum last year. I never thought this guy would be this sweet and thoughtful. I never thought he was the kind of guy that put his effort in this kind of stuff..I mean he really spent time cutting and assembling this stuff just to tell me how sincere he is to me. I couldn't stop smiling in shock when I got it last night (but it happened after he went home and I didn't show the excited face in front of him, I have a reputation to be taken care of! Hehe). I still haven't answered to his note and I don't know how I'm gonna do it. I'm not a romantic person and I really don't know if I can make him happy. All I know now is that even the plane flew out of nowhere..I'm glad that it has made its way and landed in my heart..

Ending to A New Beginning

The year has come to its beginning before I could even write about the previous year's ending. It is quite unbelievable how fast time flies leaving all memories to be captured without a single second missed. I am not sure if others feel upset about the year ending, but I don't feel happy either. I had great times and bad times in the whole year but I definitely feel bad that I can't achieve more. I'm a typical thinker, a Scorpion thinker. Well at least I had few chances to use my old passport before it expired and the ran out of pages for the stamps. 2011 has been a tough and exciting year for me. It has turned my travelling interest into a frequent need. It's my unstoppable addiction now that I have resumed it since I stopped quite a while, one or two years ago. I went to a few places to heal my heartbreak from frustrations in life, I found satisfaction again after. Talking about the places, just writing about them reminds me of how amazing the world opens up the understanding of the nature of life through all the senses. Having lunch far on top of the hill facing an active volcano (which is prone to erupt anytime) or just getting stuck to give way for the holy procession in the street of Java island, getting mistaken as one of the escort girls for your Asian look in one of the islands in Andaman Sea, or being treated unfairly for not presenting yourself like a foreigner in a country just less than two hours flight from your home; these have turned myself into someone who appreciates more than life can give. There is nothing I would ever trade for every second that life has offerred. Whatever your resolutions are, whatever you expect from life, live it just like you mean it. Happy New Year.

Just when I thought ; Il N'est Plus La

C'est midnight and I was awake

Eyes still wide opened

Mind tried to stop thinking

Juste un minuit, I whispered

I turned to the clock on the wall

I tried hard not to recall

Just when I thought I am happy

I realised how I miss a company

To do whatever we feel like

Not a particular anyone nor anything

Just a companion but il n'est plus la

Now that the heart is empty

Is there be a space to be filled?

Dans mon coeur but what if it beats?

Would it be safe from harm?

Or it would be le meme?

If it finally ticks would it be deep?

Would there be another light?

Je ne sais pas, ne sais

Would there be another soul?

Would it be smile, or another cry?

Je ne sais pas, il n'est plus la..

('Il N'est Plus La' by Marquise de Ville, Oct 2011)

As Life Goes On

I actually do not have any particular topic nor a story to write, I just find it so difficult to sleep peacefully without mind thinking about my unclear path of the future. I know, I know.. there's always a saying telling 'don't think about the future and live the present..' and such, but it is just what I do with the brain God has created, I think. I do that deeply. I have been struggling to juggle the life I have no choice but to survive these days. I skipped a few lessons after wrk as I got sick and I still try to think positively at work even without the giggles of children around. I miss watching toddlers smiling at me, as if they are trying to say 'everything is going to be okay'. But I cannot complain much though, as it is not easy to perform my best when I have a few tasks to be done in a little time.

So I hope what I have decided is the best decision for now. And thinking about getting an offer for a job in an embassy is always a good thing, not everyone can get in easily. I did. And I shall be grateful for the opportunity. Even though the workload is totally different ( which is 70 % less than in my previous company), at least I get to come home earlier than others with the same pay and get to finish my homework and attend classes with the convenient working hours. Life is tough, never easy. Why complain much, si?

I just hope things will workout for me as I am fully responsible for every step that I take. Come to think about it, the year is coming to its third quarter. May this Holy month of Ramadhan bring the most of the blessings to get me through the days. Ramadhan Kareem to all the muslims in the world, wherever you are. Goodnight.

Catch Upon The Stars

'Is this a lasting treasure
or just a moment of pleasure?'

I always ponder the question whenever I catch the stars upon my sleepless nights. Like tonight. At this very moment. As I was nagging and babbling to myself about unlucky things I have faced, I wondered how people deal with the worst things that happened in their lives. I shouldn't complain much, at least I have a good life, enough to survive. So crazy is this thing called life, now that you've got everything that you need, you tend to give up just because you can't get the things that you want. I have never myself understood how funny emotion reacts to physical needs that actually never even make sense if they don't exist. Why ask for a lifesaver when you have been swimming alone all this while?

Clean and Clear

Don't go
Don't leave
Don't ever turn your back on me
Don't say that you don't want me
Don't smile
Don't cry
Don't say a word to me
Don't throw the look at me
Don't forgive
Don't apologise
Because it it time
That I am leaving you behind

Fight For Love

The quarrels of lovers are like summer storms;
everything is more beautiful when they have passed.

- Madame Necker


I love argument, I love debate.
I don't expect anyone just to sit there and agree with me,
that's not their job.

- Margaret Thatcher


Hear one side and you will be in the dark.
Hear both and all will be clear.

- Thomas C. Haliburton

Bringing On The Heartbreak

Parfois, je perd confiance en toi,
et pourtant je voudrai tant te croire
comprend moi, malgre mon amour pur toi
les entendre me fait douter pardonne moi
je cherche pas a te faire fuire,
voit au moins celle que tu veux suivre
mais bebe non ne m'en veux pas
si je cherche a me proteger
par le passe j'ai trop pleure
pourtant je fuis pour oublier
aujourd'hui c'est a tes cotes que je veux avancer



-s'éloignant par Lynshaa

L

Does true love exist?
Or only lust that triggers the relationship?